Mired and Adrift

It's been a few weeks. A lot of weird things happened. My instagram got compromised, due to my own stupidity I must add but yeah. I was able to recover it, but then both my twitter accounts got suspended one by one for no apparent reason. I was able to restore them but like how do you even make ts up??

I also closed in on the current series I've been watching 'From' to its latest episode, which I would not have started had I known it's still ongoing. Like I like the story and it's really good but can we pace up a little bit, like cunts are always talking so much and so slowly. Amidst this I restarted going to gym after a long break since the trip and very reluctantly so. I would not have started just yet if it weren't for this guy being constantly up my ass about it. And I know I can't avoid it forever but it's too much at times with all the work stuff and my shit-ass mental, but yeah ig we keep going.

Overall it's kinda the same, it's been so since I can't remember how long. And what's more frustrating is that there is not one singular break that I can catch. This shitty job market and some of these bitch ass cunt recruiters, I swear they gotta go. And I wonder wtf am I even doing, what do I need to do to? what do I even wanna do. So much of fog that I can't see where I am even going.

All this gets so much more difficult to handle or process, cause like there's a limit to how much one can keep to themselves. I initially thought writing here would maybe help but it's more or less the same. And who else do I even share it to? whom do I talk with? what do I even say? everyone's got their own life going on about and I really don't wanna throw my burden onto someone else or worse if they don't understand the depth of it. It's useless and cruel and I can't do it, which is why I'm not gonna share these posts anymore either. If you come by, thanks a lot, but I can't, I should not put anyone under this.

I am thinking of ending this 'blog' and all as well, once and for all, but we'll see what happens. Till then good bye and take care!